Looking Back !
He was looking at her from the chair in the patio , which gave him a perfect view of her room through the painted color glass window . She was dressed in a bright blue kurti .
By the looks of it she was searching for something frantically . He looked on , observing her and the way she moved around . After a lot of banging and shoving , it was evident that she had found what she wanted from the small smile playing around her lips . It was the earrings which he had gifted her for her last birthday . She pushed a bunch of bangles onto her wrist and hurried around the room collecting what she needed for the day in office .
He looked back to the day he had met her first . Bang , Bang , Bang ! It was all what they called ‘Love at first sight” . Then , His marriage with Malini was a year old . Malini was his first love , their wedding had taken place , against odds . He was from an orthodox iyengar family and Malini was a what they called ’ a non-brahmin ’ . She had simply won over his family with her sweet smile and calm demeanor . Despite the caste differences , both families blessed them as one with the ‘atchathai’ . According to him , Malini was the only woman he was born for . But this was before he met Akaansha .
There were so many things which changed in him and around him because of her . He had a notion that , there can be nobody as beautiful and valuable like Malini . He was such a workaholic and spent many hours striving in the bank , where he worked . His long work hours were always a topic of contention between him and Malini . Meeting Akaansha had pushed all his prioroties behind and she pushed Malini from the throne of his heart and sat firmly over it .
He began cutting back on his work hours to spend more time with her and take her where ever she wanted . There was no place in the locality where , they had not taken a stroll or chatted for hours . Malini was not aware of the depth of his feelings for Akaansha and he chose not to tell her too . His love for her , icreased manifold within a short span of 3 years . During which he enjoyed shopping for her , with her . This was also a new one , he hated shopping with Malini . Those shopping trips made him tired and unwell for days to follow . But with Akaansha , it seemed such a pleasure . To watch her look enthusiastically at things in tiny shops , to hold her hands and feel the warmth in them , to get her what she wanted and make her eyes shine with happiness .
As years grew, he had developed a wonderful relationship with Akaansha and their love bloomed and blossomed into a huge tree .
Akaansha became the center of his existence . He wanted to grow old with her and die her in arms , where he knew he was well loved and cared . He stood up and went to the kitchen for a snack , which he knew his wife , would’ve made for him . She knew his needs exactly and catered to them with loving care.
Suddenly, the clanging sound of the calling bell brought him back to the present . He hurriedly gulped his chai and went to open the door . It was the courier guy with a large envelope .
“Yes ! May i help you ?” .
He noticed the quizzical look the boy gave him .
“oh ! yes , i’m 85 years old . Quit staring at my silver cotton candy like beard “ he thought to himself .
The boy passed on the huge envolope and told ” Sir , This is for Ms . Akaansha Ajit and please sign here “
He shakily drew the pen the courier boy gave him and scrawled my signature on the small space provided.
He suddenly noticed the small box with the heading ‘relationship’ just below the signature space .
He smiled to himself and scratched out the words
Damn it , his handwriting was going from bad to worse .
If you have read through till this , thank you .
happy father’s day , which happens to be on June 17th :)
Just when you think it can’t get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can’t get any better, it can.
Down the memory lane ,
After many multiples of 365 days have passed ,
Among thousands of hipocampus cells holding memories ,
With long lost promises to for ever last .
A passing ride through a vaguely familiar route ,
Taking you back to casual walks and exchanged phone numbers .
A day when the angry clouds gently spew their essence on earth ,
Will trigger a reminiscence of journey huddled under an umbrella .
An evening when the sun kisses goodbye to the sky ,
Opens up the memory of a forgotten evening of shared thoughts ,
In the company of the wind playing truant.
A stray tune ,
Taking you back to moments of floating in melodic sea ,
With shared headphones and unspoken words .
The sound of sea waves ,
Competing with each other to reach the shore ,
Reminds of turned up pants ,
Exchanged smiles and collected sea shells stowed back somewhere .
The fragrance of familiar perfume ,
Among a sea of unfamiliar faces ,
Reliving warm greetings and bear hugs .
Lingering tastes on gustatory buds ,
Bringing back snatches of whispered conversations over food ,
And fabrics stained with bits of chocolate and vanilla .
In the travel back in time ,
Over the wall of indifference ,
Creeps a wide grin lights up your face ,
Reminding you of my presence with you always through the ever present MEMORIES .
Making of semester exams !
” exam mudinjadhae therila la ?! “ that’s the first thought that came to my mind after semester exams got over . It actually surprised me ! Usually i used to have a countdown timer for the exam to get over . This time it was something new , started with a tentative “Hi” in the first year , branched out to ” aiyoo ! Have you prepared for today’s lab ” in the second year , developed into ” aathuku golu ku vango ” in 3 year , and finally leading to ” your house or mine ?! ” in the final year . Or rather in simple terms the transition was from - texting ” Eesha va pudichu vai ” to ” eyi eesha chumma kathadha ” .
Thus began the making of semester exams . Every single moment is worth of being lol’d at . So here am i to describe a few .
Take 1 - location : anitha’s house
Anitha , furiously trying to explain an important concept to myth . After she finishs explaining , Myth : ” why complicating such a simple matter ya ?! “ Anitha : ” unna lam kollanum ! Unaku poi explain panen paru ! “
a gr8 soul who is ready to explain things for the 1000th if we don’t understand by the 999th time .
Take 2 : location - Myth’s kitchen
” i think we shouldn’ve put some more salt . What say ?” ” no ! Its not cooked properly at all “ speaking like they are shooting for some cookery program are none other than our mithra and anitha. I think we broke all records by taking the maximum possible time for cooking the potato curry . I have pictures of the brave attempt too . In the end it turned out quite well . This calls for a special mention to the maid servant who battled with the utensil we had used to clean it the day after .
Take 3 . Location - same kitchen . Me : sitting in the dining table , engrossed with the morning paper and a cup of coffee . * clanging sound in the kitchen * , i rush over to find the whole kitchen flooded with MILK . Yes , u heard me right its milk . Myth : ” aiyoo ! I kept in sim only di ! Don’t knw how this happened “ ( rotfl ) i finished cleaning the whole place and anitha resumed making coffee for others . This is the routine , meaning ? Myth flooded the place with milk on regular basis , much to eesha’s delight and my amusement .
Take 4 : location - Myth’s hall myth : ” I’m very very fresh , let me explain this example” worth mentioning fact , the time was 1 in the morning . Me and anitha ( mithra rr already in 7th jamam sleepin ) look at each other in apprehension . We : ” okay ! Sollu “ after 30 mins of explanation . Me : half sleep with my head on the book anitha : ” podhum padichadhu ! Lets sleep “ both of us with blank expressions and no idea of what she explained . I guess there is no need to describe myth’s expression . Myth : ” I’ll never teach anything hereafter “ Me : ” never mind ! This is the last exam so no worries ! Haha ! Then we ended up cajoling her for the best part of the hour . In the end the question did turn up in the paper , and i smiled a bit on seeing it , earning a suspicious Glare from the inivigilator .
Once upon a time a great GRE scholar Myth putforth the law of 2 mark which stated that anything and everything given in italics or bold font is henceforth classified as an ” important 2 mark ” . Furthermore its worthy to mention that these never came in exams .
Take 5 - location - outside exam hall time - 9.55 am bioinformatics exam . Myth : ” hey hey ! Reading this protein examples application “ all of us frantically trying to mug it up . Anitha : ” eyii ! Oruthan eh savadikre , ana avan savala , so fold panni savadichu bury panre , aparam avan evolve ayi pei ah vandhu unna torture panran ! “ this is the explanation for - protein death , protein folding and protein evolution . I burst out laughing uncontrollably . People around me look at me peculiarly as its almost Time to go to the exam . I sober up immediately and go into exam hall .
Thus the semester exams was made with lots of lol moments , several sad agains , 10 clock messages and 4 clock wake up calls ( spl mention ) , waiting for messages which never came , night strolls to mannah’s bakery , morning Maggie bfasts , dominoes deliveries , the fight for bedsheets , early morning rush and panic to board the 15 bus .
” Ore veetile paduthu thoonginom natpin porvai kullae “ I’ll surely miss all this after we part ways to find our own future ! cheers to final year BME !
13 happy things to be enjoyed in life
as i was thinking where life is taking me now that I’ve almost reached d “final” year of my engineering life , i realize there r few happy moments one has to feel n cherish d memories in our hearts ! so here goes … :) bit lengthy but keep reading ahead ! :)
1. sleeping wit open eyes :
That’s d very first privilege of student life: D for example u can u can accomplish d task of switching b/w to places at once wit out d aid f apparition or portkey ! ( you’ll understand better if you’ve read harry potter ) ! u can also master d act of sitting in d first bench n having an attentive expression when you’ve no idea wt d professor s talking about ! :P
which gives gr8 fun when u think back at d memories ! :D
2. Helping people :
Ok! to accomplish this u need not b an ngo worker or red cross member or wt ever ! jus look around u from where u r sitting at home , every inch kept clean involves a lot of effort form d queen of d house - your mom ! Just straighten out stuff in your room alone , you’ll probably c bliss when your mom smiles at u :):)
3.forgiving mistakes :
u n your friend have argued ! never before seen heated argument ! She shouts , u shout . . Obviously mayhem ensues ! Forgiving mistakes not only involves forgiving the other person but also forgiving yourself to save the guilt trip! just forgive yourself n her , hug her n make up with her ! i bet you’ ll b on cloud nine when she smiles back coz no one can reject a peace offering .
4. trust :
“Don’t tell anybody ok ?? , I’m telling u this coz i trust u ” this s d best thing u can hear from a person , it makes your day ! :) try respecting d person’s trust n learn to trust few people around u too :) ! it helps in keeping your heart light !!
5.falling in love n being love back :
according to me this d best thing that cud happen in one’s life :) ! u look at a person , bam-wham !! love flowers with in u :) ! d most cherished moment s to realize u r in love ! d moment where u b giddy wit happiness n fear ! :):)
d sky seems bluer , sun shines more brightly , suddenly u become more poetic too :P a smile from him s enough to make u lose your train of thought :P ! tell “I LOVE U ” As many times as possible to your self :)
u shoot up to 7th heaven when d person reciprocates :) n feel like hell when he doesn’t ! well … don’t bother about reciprocating , love s not a feeling that should make u sad , its a feeling which glows inside u n makes u d most happiest person !
cherish it !
8.ignoring people when u have to :
so being al goody-goody in life leads u no where put people who r mean to u in their right place ! shout if u have to , b harsh if u have to . . :P (that’s d best advise I’ve had in a while ) n above al sometimes its better to ignore worthless people rather than spoiling your mood over them , NOBODY S WORTH YOUR TEARS N SADNESS !
u can actually feel a sense u satisfaction when u do this ( mind u , I’ve had experience with this ) !
last week i read a quote which says - ” d smile s d most sexiest curve of ur body” ha ha :D
i actually feel its ABSOLUTELY RIGHT . A smile on your face does wonders more dan a makeup set cud do ! even when u r most tired n shabby looking , wear a smile which reaches to your eyes ! t can actually make your eyes glow n adds beauty to your personality !!
jus go on try t :) !
10. appreciation :
jus think back when s d last time u complimented your mom over the kolam she had done in d house entrance or about your dad’s new tie which makes him look handsome !! i bet you’ve been cooped up with your work n not looking at people around u !
that’s d most worst thing which will kill your relationship with people ! of course everybody has work n engagements ! so learn too see around our self ! world around us is jus like “facebook” lots of things to “comment”(as in complimenting about good stuff ) and “like” ! :D jus do it n c d difference in d way people respond to u ! :) u ll really feel a difference !
11. peace within :
d most clichéd saying - “peace doesn’t lie anywhere else t lies within u ” !! but its d truth ! :) DO NOT GIV D KEY OF YOUR HAPPINESS IN SOMEBODY’S HANDS ! Its after all yours , y should others b given d right to t :) ! have d remote control of your mood in your hands ! do not allow people to punch d wrong buttons in t !
12. positivity :
al above everything , stay positive :) it doesn’t matter if u r happy n stay negative ! doesn’t takes u anywhere ! :)
take things told to u in d right sense ! DO NOT READ B/W LINES N COMPLICATE THINGS FOR YOURSELF !! keep things simple !! :)
13. patience :
now people who r reading this part f my post , i should really congratulate u that u have patience to a certain extent to have read thru my post til d last ! :D:D
on a serious note , things u aspire fr do not jump into your hands when u want t ! u need to stay calm n approach t in d right way ! :) but let me warn u , being too much patient may lead to lethargy ! :P
b careful ! :)
finally understand that each moment in your life , is a once in a while opportunity ! do not waste t :)
face life wit a dazzling smile which diminishes d problems !!
smile as often as u can ! make people around u to smile too !!
life s short ,make t sweet !! :)
live in d sunshine ! swim in d sea ! drink d wild air :):) enjoy life to d maximum !! :)
Eat , Pray , Love !
Elizabeth Gilbert , an American woman who has a perfect house , a husband , a battalion of friends and a very successful writing career . In spite of all this she is unhappy with the marriage and opts out of it , filing for divorce . Meanwhile she has fallen in love with David , which further complicates things . Swamped with divorce proceedings and settlement issues , Liz finds her life thrown out of balance .
In the current situation she decides to go a year long travel in pursuit of Self Realization . She travels to three different destination in search of pleasure , inner peace and love . Her first destination is Italy , where she signs up for classes to learn Italian ( her life long wish ) . In Italy she finds pleasure in mastering the language and makes a few friends . She puts on four pounds of weight owing to her new found love for Italian food . Precisely after four months of stay in Italy , she leaves behind her loneliness and negativity which has been plaguing her for many months .
Secondly she moves on to an Ashram in suburban India . There she learns the art of meditation and yoga . She realizes that peace and god lay within us , waiting to be discovered . She shrugs off the nagging feeling of regret revolving around her divorce and leans to move on . A much changed and light hearted Liz proceeds to Indonesia .
In Indonesia , in the company of a 120 year old medicine man Ketut Liyer , she comes across a lot of Balinese traditions and customs by which she is fascinated . She makes friends with a local healer , Wayan . Wayan is a divorcee with a child of her own and two other adopted kids . The kindness of Wayan , in adopting two orphan kids even in the state of extreme poverty moves Liz’s heart and she proceeds to collect donations to help Wayan build a house . Meanwhile , she falls in love with Filipe , the Brazilian man whom she meets at party . With a happy heart and a peaceful mind Liz’s ends her year of travel .
The author Elizabeth Gilbert paints wonderful picture of her travel expeditions . The description of the scenic beauties of Italy and Bali , paints a vivid picture of the locations in the readers mind . On the whole , it a must read for philosophy lovers , readers who like to travel . And on a personal note , I immensely reading every page of the book .
My entry for Edwards Human Life Contest on Facebook
I suddenly awoke from my fitful sleep due;an acute pain in my chest and i had a great difficulty in breathing . I wrenched my eyes open and surveyed my surroundings . I was in a large room with floor length windows , and doctors were shouting out orders and nurses were running around with a lost look on their faces . The entire atmosphere was gripped with gloom and death .;
It took me a while to understand what i was doing in this place , and then I remembered . Ah ! the Spanish Influenza Epidemic . The last thing i remembered was being wheeled out of the cottage along with my mother who also suffering from the same terrible disease .;
I’m Edward Anthony Masen , aged 17 .
I looked around searching for my mother , tried to get up from the bed . ;
” Son , please don’t strain yourself “;
I turned towards the voice and came to face with a man so handsome that my eyes hurt to look at them .;
i shot him a puzzled look , he smiled at me in a fatherly way .;
” I’m Carlisle Cullen . I’ve been looking after you since you had come here “;
” Then , you must Know my mother , Elizabeth Mason . She was brought here along with me ;”;
As soon as I asked this question a felt a subtle change in his expression and guessed what had happened .;
” Ah ! Your mother was not as lucky as you . She passed away two days ago and you were in a delirious state which made it impossible to inform you of what had happened ”
I felt so crushed . My mother was the only living relation I had and I had lost my father long ago.;
As if sensing my grief , the doctor laid his hand on my shoulder and bent close to me .;
” The death had brought an end to her suffering , son . Please allow your mind and body to rest . You need to your stamina to recover . “;
I looked into his compassionate face and felt an odd feeling of;camaraderie towards this person whom I had met just 10 minutes back . I noticed his eyes were in a peculiar color of molten gold with a dark brown iris . I saw my own bedraggled face reflected from the depths .;
He reached into his coat pocket and withdrew a ring which was all familiar to me . I felt fresh grief eating my insides and felt my eyes cloud over with tears . ;It was my mother’s ring , encrusted with diamonds .;
” Your mother asked me to give this to you ” I closed my cold fingers over the ring , which was the last object I had in memory of my mother .;
” Thank you ” , I said in a raspy voice , I felt my body slipping into oblivion and then I thought that i din’t have much time before I joined my mother forever .;
The last thing I remembered before the I was engulfed with darkness is Carlisle studying me with a curious look on his face .;
When I regained;consciousnesses , I din’t know for how long I had slept . I noticed that I had been shifted to a new room which was semi-dark and the only source of light was from the street lamp which was flickering through the bedside window .;
My breathing was;labored and the constriction in my throat was growing making it difficult to breath . I felt the death’s dark iron fist close in on the thread of my life ,;threatening to snap it . Suddenly I felt ;someone watching me through the darkness . The figure emerged from the shadows , it was Carlisle . There was an odd glow to his skin even in the darkness . I felt mesmerized . I wanted to thank him for his kindness before i died . He came closer to my bed and a sudden feeling of fear seized me .
Up close I saw that he had predator like look on his face and a dangerous glint in his eyes . I wanted to get up and run away from him but my body was too weak to respond to my brain .;
He bent close to my face and his cool , sweet breath fanned across my face . ” I’m sorry edward . This is the last choice I made to save you ”
I was confused and dint understand what he was referring to . He looked deep into my green eyes before I felt a raging pain in my neck . Carlisle had moved with inhuman speed and bit into my neck .
I felt my neck snap under the impact . It felt like my whole body was on fire . I screamed out loud ; unable to suppress my agony . I felt the fire travel from my neck , all through my body , coursing through my blood vessels .
I did not Know for how many days I thrashed around , withering with pain and screaming in agony .
Many Many eons of time later , I felt the pain recede from my finger tips and the burning was localized in my chest . Finally I felt my heart stutter and come to a halt .;
I could smell a decayed smell that was like that of rotting bodies . I opened my eyes and saw a rainbow of colors in the sunlight streaming through the window . I searched around the room and found Carlisle surveying me with a slight smile . I dint understand what had happened to me .
” What the . . ” Before i could complete the sentence , Carlisle interrupted me and shoved a mirror in front of my face .;
I recoiled with shock from my own reflection . My once green eyes were in a shade of blood red and there was an aura of deadly beauty around me . The sun light streaming from the windows fell on my hand , and I noticed like there were a thousand diamonds under my skin . I studied myself with;fascination and glanced over at Carlisle who was observing me with a bemused expression .;
” What have i become ? What have you done to me ? ” I got up from the bed and moved towards Carlisle with an inhuman speed which surprised me .;
” You are a vampire now “;
Carlisle’s statement shook my core and I stared at him blankly .
Day 01 – Best book I read last year
This was a book which I started reading towards the end of the last year and I must say this the best book I read last year . Written by the much acclaimed Khaled Hosseini , the book does not disappoint you , it has a classical touch and takes you directly to the war be-spoiled Afganistan . The harsh reality of lost homes and death is realistically portrayed .
The pre-war friendship and bond between Hassan and Amir is sure to bring out a few of your own childhood memories . Eventually they do break apart and look after their own lives . While Hassan remains in Afganistan , Amir travels to Los Angels with his father in search of his destiny . There he builds his own family with the soft spoken Soraya . Later on The news of Hassan’s family being destroyed comes as a crushing blow .
Meanwhile , Amir receives a phone call from his father’s old aide wo urges him to come back to Afghanistan and search for Hassan’s son Saorab . The plight of Sorab’s condition is sure to bring tears to your eyes . Finally Sorab finds a family with Soraya and Amir .
30 day book challenge !
Day 01 – Best book you read last year
Day 02 – A book that you’ve read more than 3 times
Day 03 – Your favorite series
Day 04 – Favorite book of your favorite series
Day 05 – A book that makes you happy
Day 06 – A book that makes you sad
Day 07 – Most underrated book
Day 08 – Most overrated book
Day 09 – A book you thought you wouldn’t like but ended up loving
Day 10 – Favorite classic book
Day 11 – A book you hated
Day 12 – A book you used to love but don’t anymore
Day 13 – Your favorite writer
Day 14 – Favorite book of your favorite writer
Day 15 – Favorite male character
Day 16 – Favorite female character
Day 17 – Favorite quote from your favorite book
Day 18 – A book that disappointed you
Day 19 – Favorite book turned into a movie
Day 20 – Favorite romance book
Day 21 – Favorite book from your childhood
Day 22 – Favorite book you own
Day 23 – A book you wanted to read for a long time but still haven’t
Day 24 – A book that you wish more people would’ve read
Day 25 – A character who you can relate to the most
Day 26 – A book that changed your opinion about something
Day 27 – The most surprising plot twist or ending
Day 28 – Favorite title
Day 29 – A book everyone hated but you liked
Day 30 – Your favorite book of all time